dreams

last night, i had a dream about the one and only justin. ya. it sux. its like he is the only one that i can think about now days. i even dream about him. i never even dreamt about my boi friend. but i dream about him? this has gotten really weird lately. i need him so much that i even dream about him. so. now this is my dream: we were at school. at recess. the whole sixth grade was there, but they were kind of in the background. when i caught sight of him, i couldnt seem to stop staring. his eyes, the beautiful green with a rim of blue. it was like a sea that took me a float into the depths of forever. he suddenly looked back, and i shot my head away as quickly as possibe so he wouldnt know i was staring at him. and at that moment the background came back. i could hear the noise. the winters breeze, the kids falling on the icy patches and screaming and laughing...until in front of me i noticed justin. he was standing right in front of my face, close enough for me to go on my tip toes and kiss him. suddenly, before i knew what happened, he was holding me in his arma. just hugging me. so i hugged back out of surprise...and satisfction. as i hugged back, he started to loosen, and he kissed me. i stould there in shock, the cold akwardly noticeable. only because he had left so quickly, its as if he vanished from thin air. he was no where to be found, anywhere. i searched frantically, high..low.... and everywhere in between. but i still couldnt find him. so i sat against the wall and curled into my little shell as if the whole world has just crashed. as if our 2 worlds collided. i tried to come out, but i couldnt. i was tooo scared that he would be standing in my face saying it was a mistake, and leaving me. so i stayed there, hiding from everything around me..... and then i woke up. *awake* i couldnt believe i had actually dreamt of him. i am losing it! i need help desperatly..... help... anyone...